Aug. 19th, 2008 @ 07:29 pm Um... Game Stuff, I Guess
There's a discussion to be had about gamers and gaming. There are many, in fact--but the experience is rather impossible to sum up. I love every aspect of it even if I can't afford to indulge in new games, and hardly spare the time to indulge in the old. I love the philosophical discussion as much as the building blocks that make a game in the first place. It's a world that interests and disgusts me at the same time, mostly due to (like anywhere else) a wide variety of interesting assholes. *grin*

This has little to do with anything other than what I've been reading lately and thought to pass on.

Is This What We Want? seems to me to be asking whether or not everyone should be a gamer. It seems an odd question... and so help me, I appreciate Jonathan Blow's point: "We don't say that there is something wrong with a novel because people who haven't learned to read are unable to appreciate it. When writing our novels, we could always be sure to carefully restrict the reading level, so that all the sentences are like 'See Spot run. Run, Spot, run!' But that would also restrict what we are able to evoke." While I would agree that a lot of modern games are off-putting to non-gamers because they are difficult to pick up and learn, another point is made: you don't sit in front of a piano and play the first time. Maybe games aren't so easily accessible to every single person, but... I can't bring myself to believe they're elitist either. If you want to learn, you can learn. Yes it's fucking frustrating as all hell, but you will learn. I might know a thing or two about that.

And just because it cracked me up, apparently McCain just hates D&D geeks. *grin* (You will not see me talking about politics because I find everyone who struts about and wants to be in charge of a country revolting. There you go, my political discussion.) I believe someone is about to learn about "nerd rage". Unfortunately, nothing good will come of it.

The Virtual Transgender Suit is ridiculous. But opens discussion about the interesting concept of playing, and choosing to play, different genders than our own in RPGs. But you know me--the issues of gender and sexuality always fascinate the hell out of me.

Gamer Porn. I am so all for it. But you know, it's gotta be just right for me. *grin* Straight porn bores the living fuck out of me... literally. And my aesthetic pretty much tosses out 99% of people involved in porn, so. I'll join the hoards waiting for Nomura to give up his private collection of illustrations and--we all hope desperately--movies.

Kokoromi challenges independent game makers to create games that make use of 3-D glasses! ..I'm too excited about that. Can't wait to see the results, though.

There is a bit of a cult of Ragnar Tørnquist... but I really kind of like what he has to say about storytelling in games.

Yeah, designing games would be fun. But I could not stand the "industry".

Anyway. Back to work.
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Aug. 17th, 2008 @ 08:55 pm Quick Stuff
Hasn't been much going on. Apparently I am doing many many things that are keeping me busy. Again. Still. No worries, still working on requests. And I damn well will get back to responses and such. I just... need to keep that in mind before I spend another several hours on audio or dragons or a beaded something that I refuse to admit to.

Total complete stupid luck at work again ("No, no, there is no fate..."). A friend of the wasband's family turns out to have been nearly life-long friends with a woman who has porphyria. There are two hospitals in Boston with hematologists and can at least properly collect samples even if they may still need to send the samples out to the lab in New York. Problem: she made a point of saying that it is costly. Well. Super. I'll bet neither of these hematologists are covered by my MassHealth, too. 'Cause... no one is. But, well. Worth investigation. Maybe before AnimeUSA (in case I, y'know, have a little episode), but... that depends on how expensive. Either way I'll be owing someone money, but I kinda just got out from under shit held over my head for money reasons. I'm not real happy to rush back into that situation, health-related concerns or otherwise. But anyway. The news is mostly positive.

And yes, I really am allergic to sunlight. Who didn't see this coming? *grin*

"Bring on the Dancing Horses" by Echo and the Bunnymen. Sounds kinda silly and extremely harmless, right? To me it's the epitomize of emptiness, hopelessness, cruelty and darkness. I enjoy anything that pushes me to limits I didn't know I had. Especially when they seem so innocent for so long.
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Aug. 15th, 2008 @ 03:58 pm And... Things...
There, now I have a dragon bracelet of my own.

Not much to speak of, really. Many attempts at a swan-inspired piece have yielded... interesting things, actually. But not what I was looking for. I am finally going the right direction, though.

Other than that, waiting for my body to stop being a bastard so I can concentrate and get some work done. Bleh.
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Aug. 12th, 2008 @ 06:15 pm "A Manmade Angeal/ Trapped Upon the Ground..."
The relative un-event of the morning. )

And then I stopped at the bead store. And splurged a little. Heh. (When $27 is my idea of splurging, I think I'm just fine, thanks.) I told the owner of my theory that it all comes back to loving shiny objects, and she and another customer agreed. This is a good sign. Now I can build some more prototypes and bracelets.
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Aug. 10th, 2008 @ 08:15 pm Drop-By
In case my fellow S-E-has-my-soul people missed it, I'm simplify. S-E. Official character outfits. Ah, the possibilities. Too bad we're all aware they will be way too damn expensive. So we're back to building them ourselves, I suppose.

And because we could all use a little Bad Religion, here's "I Love My Computer". Mmm, snotty old man punk. *grin* ...I still love them.

Oh. And the real Leeroy Jenkins. It's... actually interesting and kinda sad. As everything on the internet. *snort*
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Aug. 9th, 2008 @ 06:22 pm Things, Some of Which Are Shiny

And the booking of a pet-friendly hotel really does mean that I'm getting a ride into Delaware and it really is official that I will be at AnimeUSA and that's just spiffy. Now I've only to get to the room first and find teh darkest corner in which to curl up in and hiss at everyone when they come too close. Unless they bring food. Then they will be hissed at when the food is gone.

...Need to get my ass on those contest prizes then, yes. Yay, another trip to the bead store! Should probably... you know... teach myself how not to butcher wigs, too. ...Hm.

Anyway. Giving a little thought to the craft fair just because it would be nice to be semi-prepared ahead of time, even if that's never really worked for me. See, I was thinking of displays... part of me kinda wants to do a few heavy-gauge wire trees rather than your standard displays or just flat-against-the-table simplicity. So if I do various sizes/heights of wire trees for a good deal of the table, will people simply keep knocking shit over? *grin* Okay, obviously that has to do with set-up and they'd be best in the back anyway, but... hm. Depends on the length of the branches, too. Just thinking out loud.

Typing out loud.

...Typing in thought.

........I'm sure I have something else to put my energy into now.
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Aug. 9th, 2008 @ 12:38 am ACCOMPLISH
No one else will care but this is my accomplishment so just sit there and pretend to take it. TAKE IT. AND LIKE IT.

Baby dragons made of itty bitty Delica beads (and a #2 pencil for proof of their size).

Smaller = so much fucking harder. So much fucking harder oh my god.

...But they're so sweet and so shiny, dammit. More pictures when they're actually done-done.
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Aug. 8th, 2008 @ 03:22 pm More Tasty Random

  • Okay, recent projects since I have been slightly neglectful here. Earrings for cochise. 'Cause she bought Delicate Demo 2 and wanted matching earrings. Whoot!
  • Another pair of earrings that I don't know if I'll... keep like that, really. I do like the Swarovski... er... "cherry blossom"... filigree... things, though. (And hell, if anyone wants them, let me know.)
  • And then there's Existential, which is... weird but simple but weird. But shiny.

Got an e-mail from the craft fair coordinator and she got the check, says she's looking forward to seeing my jewelry. I really must write back with thanks. *grin*

Tuesday we are to show up at the courthouse at 8:00 in the fucking morning and pretty much expect to wait until at least 9:00 before we even have a chance of getting called in. There's really no telling how long we'll be there, which is... irritating. All this for a couple of questions and we have no idea whether we'll need to be called in again 90 days from now. Seriously, court system. Guess I ought to bring something to do and a snack or two. Though we are assured that uncontested divorces are heard first... well. I gotta wonder how many other people will be waiting. I will hope the legal system is nothing like the medical system. Then wish myself luck.

It's telling when an analyst warns that a movie (The Dark Knight) requires a video game. Sadly "because we're missing out on money" doesn't seem to me to be a very good reason. (Even though I use it with S-E all the time--but they don't listen to me anyway.) We really, really don't need more shit games based on movies. Really. Waste of time, effort, resources, and press releases.

People are still blaming stupid shit on Grand Theft Auto IV. And looks like old Jackie-Jackie Thompson is still hangin' around. We're glad for that, aren't we? Of course we are.

And this quote from Steve Gaynor (more on the subject of game narrative here):
Video games are not a traditional storytelling medium per se. The player is an agent of chaos, making the medium ill-equipped to convey a pre-authored narrative with anywhere near the effectiveness of books or film. Rather, a video game is a box of possibilities, and the best stories told are those that arise from the player expressing his own agency within a functional, believable gameworld. These are player stories, not author stories, and hence they belong to the player himself. Unlike a great film or piece of literature, they don't give the audience an admiration for the genius in someone else's work; they instead supply the potential for genuine personal experience, acts attempted and accomplished by the player as an individual, unique memories that are the player's to own and to pass on.
If it's not already quote obvious, I disagree--but only by measures. I believe there are video games that exist in the way he describes them, of course--and putting yourself into the role of the hero is what makes it important (the original Zelda is a good example of that). But I also see games as telling stories, as author's works, which becomes increasingly clear when S-E takes your heart and soul and wallet and pretty soon you are just an empty vessel gaping lovingly at whatever screenshots they throw at you... but goddamn they're always fucking sexy.

My point is, it's an open medium. People. Stop trying to define it. Leave it to its own devices and it will be free to be anything. Everything. *continues to look for Okami and Rez in PS2 bargain bins... and maybe Twilight Princess for the GameCube, but that's one's a lot more unlikely*

And now it's thundering pretty damn close out there. Geez.
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Aug. 5th, 2008 @ 05:51 pm Random... Things... of Random

  • You know it's too hard to stop something so wonderfully shiny. Kerian's the latest dragon-critter-thing. May as well stock up before I take a break from beads to do some more chain mail.

Not that much to write about at the moment, really. Need to finish catching up, so... let's have some game news.

Someone is either really stupid or telling us things we already know at Best Buy: FF7 for PS3? (Obviously a misprint... or is it? *snort*)

Team Ico lives! And they have something "really, really good". ...Well duh.

*takes a deep breath* DEVIL MAY CRY EBONY AND IVORY AIRSOFT GUNS. See them here, love them forever for too damn much money. But just look at them. Yay.

An interesting if only light prodding at male and female aesthetics in games and game consoles.

And I had to link to these Rock, Paper, Shotgun posts (the first, and the second) regarding the 1/10 score Eternity's Child received from Destructoid, and how the key developer... er... "was unhappy". It's kind of an assholefest all around, yes, but these posts in particular make excellent points. And personally... it's painful to see something I was looking forward to kind of... not being anything that it hoped to be. Ah well.
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Aug. 3rd, 2008 @ 03:48 pm Mmm, Shiny

  • 'Cause these dragon bracelets still have a ways before being perfected and I enjoy making them and here's one more: Querida. (Keep in mind I haven't even started to experiment with wings yet...)

Alright, so... yeah. A healthy dose of "why the hell not" seems to be the attitude toward the craft show, and so I am filling out the "contract". Which... pretty much just tells me when to show up and where to send the check to. Works for me. But see, there's the option here to donate an item for the raffle. ...This is about the point where I find out what kind of sense of humor people have. I mean, I wouldn't donate anything blatantly offensive. Just... nicely off-kilter. I will consider it.

There was probably more to talk about, but I assume I'll get back to it eventually. Catching up, you know.
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Aug. 1st, 2008 @ 10:23 pm Well, Unexpected
I've just been asked if I want to be a vendor at a craft fare in November, put on by a Jewish temple a couple of towns over. ...After they saw my work. ...Does this mean I'm less likely to offend these people if I consider it? *grin*

$40 admission for four hours on a Sunday, bring your own display table... Hm, I don't know. Anyone got any advice on this matter?
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Aug. 1st, 2008 @ 05:00 pm Can't Sit in an Ice Cream Shop Without Hearing, "ICE CREAM ICE CREAM!"...
Was just too worn down yesterday, but now I can show off Sien and Selia. Not so much "overboard on the shinies" as the shinies went a little overboard on me. But a pair of matching dragon bracelets doesn't sound so bad, does it? The work involves is not something I'd like to think about right now, though. *grin*

...And I'm fresh back from the bead store with more ideas. Oh dear.

Okay. So. The Dark Knight. (Spoilers a-plenty, and lots of rambling.) )

So yes, I'm still... happy about that. But "in other news". Found out a lab in New York can test for all forms of porphyria, so this is... a start. Bad news is I still have to find a general practitioner and the list they sent me is exactly the same minus about three names MassHealth is still a piece of shit die die die. *cough* But we'll deal with that Monday.

And... now... I bathe a puppy.
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Jul. 31st, 2008 @ 06:28 pm OrgLIX July Update--IT STILL COUNTS
First off, I have to give an enormous amount of attention to Michael Keens' animation of our OrgLIX AUSA announcement. Columbus Day weekend! AnimeUSA! Come and laugh at us!

Official Pie, Part 3 (5:00, 4.69M)
Cast: Saïx, Xaldin, Xemnas, and Luxord
Director: Orin
Writer: Orin
Summary: The trials of vanquishing pumpkins are nothing compared with having to report to Xemnas.

Rules (8:32, 8.02M)
Cast: Full Cast
Director: Orin
Writer: Orin
Summary: First Rule of OrgLIX - Talk about OrgLIX with all of your friends.

And then we have our one Crisis Perverted update, The Other Woman. 'Cause... well... why not?
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Jul. 29th, 2008 @ 06:26 pm Zack-Spam!
...That sounded really wrong. But Zack-wrong.

Anyway. More Zaaaaack. You will be mine.
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Jul. 29th, 2008 @ 06:09 pm Get Away from Bruce Wayne When He Starts Talking About Music...
...Is it sad that my first comment on The Dark Knight was, "That sound was fucking awesome--every punch was satisfying"?

More. At some point. Later. Goddamn.
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Jul. 28th, 2008 @ 11:27 pm Um... Stuff
In case anyone didn't know about this or may actually care, Adventures in Voice Acting: Volume 1 is out. It sounds like fun... though I think I'll wait for the video games volume. ...And even then, $30 a pop... But it may be worth it to hear about all of their experiences. *grin*

Voice actors, man. ...I'm a bit addicted at this point.
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Jul. 28th, 2008 @ 04:46 pm Babble Babble CURSE Babble
After this latest dragon is done... I did happen to find the perfect strip of black velvet to finish off the insane beaded sitar of dooooooom. And then, as much as I love it, I've got to try and sell it. I need to get it as far away from me as possible. *grin*

The continuing adventures of MassHealth Sucks Ass. )

But that was just my morning. Today was the first time I've seen a dragonfly all year. Sort of coppery-greeny-gold and quite small, but it was nice. I'm not sure if I should worry that I haven't seen any more of them... they used to be thick.

And speaking of little visitors, for the past two nights this desk has been visited by... what I can only describe as a pudgy little spider. ...I do not mean to insult this spider, but really... he is not what I would think of when considering a spider's shape. He's definitely a jumper, although he made quite a thud when he jumped on the keyboard. As usual, I think it was my laughter that made him skitter away. He's a timid little thing, but entertaining. I hope he keeps hidden during the day, seeing as how the wasband is not quite as fond of spiders as I am.

And so last night I finally made it through all of Metal Gear Solid 4... in cutscene form. Dude, I cannot afford games, let alone consoles. It was like a very very very very very long movie. *grin* Miniseries. There we go. Anyway. Since I was curious and I likely won't even be able to play the game for several years... and since I love my spoilers... I had to. (And since I'd already seen the ending before I watched the rest. Who's surprised?) Thoughts in which I try not to spoil too much. ...Maybe. No, really. )

Back to work on shinies and mixing.
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Jul. 26th, 2008 @ 11:50 pm Quick Announcements
You know you want to join [info]ffchaoticcosmos, the Dissidia community. You know you want to because there is just so much sexy in one place from across the vast range of sexy called Final Fantasy games. And dammit, it actually looks fun.

...And yes, I care about the sequel to Tron, shut up.
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Jul. 26th, 2008 @ 02:40 pm ACCOMPLISHMENT
I can't really believe I just did this. Several days and many, many, many agonizing lessons learned (and I haven't cleaned it up yet so it looks uneven and there are still threads hanging off of it but I don't care it's done I lived through it here is proof). I sure as hell hope Kingdom Hearts fans enjoy it. DO YOU RECOGNIZE THIS?!?!?! 1,850 tiny fucking maddening Delica beads which the camera butchers and makes look like it's all pretty much the same color dammit.

And so you're thinking, "wow what a waste of time". Only until you get the right light source. And then it's fucking awesome. Naturally I can't get a good picture of exactly why I chose those colors but I can assure you it's like the fucking Electric Light Parade sparkly sparkly yay.

There aren't any better pictures right now since it's... not finished. I'm debating what I'm turning it into, really. A cuff still seems to be the best idea. It's actually fantastically strong so there's no reason to line it with anything, but I'll continue to ponder that part.

Now I am going to finish up my necklace commission and then I'm going back to dragons for a while because they hurt less and are more rewarding and don't taunt me.
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Jul. 26th, 2008 @ 01:06 am ZACK: Part 2
I did not squeak.

I did not squeak.

I did not squeak.

I chirped.
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